Sunday, March 7, 2010

Sunday Service

I walked all the way to Maryland today.  Doesn't that sound funny to say??  But, when you live in DC, and you set out to walk aimlessly, sometimes you end up in another state entirely.  I walked, and walked, and walked.  These streets really are beautiful.

Sometimes I forget I am living my dream.  A fantastic job, a great city and a family at home that loves me.  Friends here that do too.  Even if none of us are perfect.  I realized this today, as I walked along, and came upon this intersection that lead to this street and I immediately thought of all of you.

If you can't read that, it says "Church of the Epiphany."  Well--I've had a few of those lately.  Epiphanies, that is, not church.  Although I guess I could use more of that in my life these days. 

The epiphany is that my life is pretty good.  I'm not suffering, I have enough food and shelter and I'm doing ten times better than I was at this time last year.  I had a dream, a goal, I set out to do it and I did.  And if I experience loneliness and heartache along the way, well then, that's just the way it is.

I went to the Farmers Market today and there were SO many people around.  So many kids, dogs, toddlers, strollers, and a sense of community that I'd been searching for.  I stretched out on the grass with a dozen other people, and we all stared at the sky and I felt the sun on my face for the first time in so many months.  

I went to the park bench at one point, and laid down there with a book and my head on my backpack.  A man beside me read poems out loud to himself, and to us. 

Today I went to church, I think.  A sunday sermon today was given to me about being grateful, of remembering what I am here for.  And of letting go of expectations and trying to

(And oh yeah, and if you read the post below--we held hands.)


Ms. Moon said...

You know, honey, that sounds awesome. Enjoy!

Bethany said...

Yay SJ. So glad you're feeling better. So glad you told us about the hand holding. Nice!

Angie Muresan said...

I am so pleased to hear that you had such an epiphany.